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alkaline, Chakra, chill out, family constellation, food, forgiveness, healing, heart chara, Herpes simplex, louise hay, patience, positive intention, Sacral Chakra, sexuality, shaman, Virus
This is a continuation of last weeks post The Energetics of Herpes. If you haven’t read that one its probably a wise idea to read it before this post.
As we continue to explore Herpes and reflect on it we can clearly see that it is a very sexual disease affecting the sexual organs. This to me states that from an energetic perspective its “home” resides in the Sacral Chakra, and it is closely tied to the Root Chakra and the Solar Plexus.
The Sacral Chakra is the energy center that is in charge of the sexual aspect of us as human beings, among other things, in the simpliest of terms. The Root chakra takes care of making sure that we have enough, and the Solar Plexus is in charge of our personal power. To find more in depth information you can go here.
When we work with energy we often refer to these Chakra points to bring into focus what we are working on. The focus here for me is the Sacral Chakra.
I did some family constellation work with a Shaman I know well who is creating his own version of that modality by incorporating spirituality, NLP, and magick. I choose to have Herpes represented. Friend 1 stood in for me, I stood in for the virus, and Friend 2 stood in for the Positive Intentions of the Virus.
In the constellation the virus was like a warrior lying in wait for the perfect moment to attack. It didn’t care about anything else. It simply was enjoying the game.
Friend 1 was scared of the virus. Didn’t want it. Resisted it.
Friend 2 (positive intention) approached Friend 1, and the virus was curious. The virus moved so that it could see the interaction between Friend 2 and Friend 1. Friend 2 (positive intention) asked Friend 1 if she would accept the gifts she had to bring.
Friend 1 said yes.
As soon as the hearts opened and Friend 1 received the positive intention of Friend 2, the virus was no longer interested in being around. It felt good, but there was no more work to be done, and off the virus went.
As Friend 1 integrated Friend 2, the positive intentions of the virus, in my body I felt a burning sensation where the breakouts start for me. As soon as this constellation was complete the shaman smudged all of us.
“The virus is still there, there is still more work to do, but this will open up the doors” said he. I nodded because I had felt that.
The friend who had been the positive intention of Herpes at the end expressed that she had felt a blockage between the sacral chakra and the heart chakra. She said that she feels that I could clear it out easily with visualizations.
I found this to be extremely informative, telling me that the expression of my heart is directly connected to the expression of my sexuality. It tells me that in order to own my sexuality I must forgive myself sexually (trauma survivor and the guilt, see Louise Hay’s words in the previous post on Herpes).
I’ve been doing a simple visualization almost daily, whenever I think about it, of white-gold light dissolving any blockages between my sacral and heart chakras. When I really tune into it at around the diaphragm I feel something shifting. I’m not sure what it is but I can tell you that it is shifting my experiences with men.
What is the positive intention of Herpes? How can I love Herpes and accept all its lessons? Most of what I’ve felt towards it has been fear and anger. When I brainstorm though this is what I get:
Thus far herpes has taught me a ton about diet. I’ve perfected sugar free alkaline chocolates that kick ass. I’ve learned about alkalinity in the body and how to alkalize it.
I can’t abuse my body by the food that I eat. What I eat is not a choice anymore – I’ve known for years that certain foods harm my body but eat them anyways because they are “cheap”. Most of these foods are acidic.
I’ve learned that I need to chill out frequently and any times my shoulders start to rise in tension. The best way to chill out? See the big picture and relax into the now.
I’ve learned to take it easy on myself. It’s okay to go at the pace that I go, despite what other people think. I can only go at my own pace because if I go too slow that demotivates me, but if I go too fast, it hurts my body.
I’ve learned patience with the pace of life, with myself and my body.
Most people don’t know what to say about herpes and that many adults squirm when the topic comes up. And that there are just as many people who don’t know about herpes that do know about it.
I’ve definitely learned about how sensitive my body is and about my immune system.
I’ve also learned that I am not invulnerable. I mentally knew it and could tell you that, but as I’m still in my young 20’s I had that “I’m invincible” way of being in the world because that’s how I felt. Not anymore.
Its led me to learn more about my body as a woman, often surprising myself with my discoveries. Latest one: Parthenogenesis.
Funny yet True Learnings about Herpes
With that, I am feeling complete on this topic.
I would love to hear your input or feedback! What do you know/experience with the energetic level of herpes? What has your experience of herpes taught you?
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Happy said:
Wonderful post. Your approach is very similar to mine.
As traumatic as it was for me to contract herpes, I’ve learned that like any disease, it has been a real opportunity for self discovery and growth. It left me at a crossroads.. Do I continue doing what I’ve been doing or do I dig deep and do what it takes to alter and shift what caused this in the first place? I chose the latter.
Since then, I’ve discovered so much about myself as well as various healing modalities and perspectives that have furthered my knowledge about healing and my own health.
Ive been approaching healing it from all levels… Physical, energetic, spiritual, emotional etc.
I’ve completely altered my diet and my attitude for what I allow in my body. I’m now a starch free vegan. I’ve lost 9 lbs and have more energy that ever.
This attitude has has also shifted to who I allow in my body. I’m much more boundaried about who I choose to connect with energetically and sexually.
I discovered there were a lot of limiting beliefs and behaviors that allowed me to contract this in the first place. I’ve had to uncover my unhealthy patterns and begin upgrading them.
I’ve practiced a variety of healing modalities that have helped me get to the emotional source of herpes which I believe is shame and guilt.
This led me to begin practicing tantric yoga and altering my relationship to my sexuality and the sacredness of sex, in general.
Spiritually, it has led me to move along on my path to being a healer. It’s given me compassion and understanding of what people have to go through when faced with a disease that is deemed “incurable” by western medicine. I’m clear your will and mental strength will be tested, but from that comes strength.
In short, it’s been a blessing in disguise!!
Serafina said:
Yes, yes, YES!!!
Same page of a same book! You can turn it into such a deep and powerful blessing. It has sent me, even now, on a path of healing my relationship to the masculine, which just keeps getting deeper and deeper.
For me, when I look at the situations in which I contracted the dis-ease I can see not only my shame and guilt but so many others picked up. As I drove away from the doctor’s office after my diagnosis the woman I was with said to me, “You are too beautiful and too sensitive a being to not have sacred sex. You must have sacred sex, and the men around you must respect the fact that sex is sacred. You have to respect the sacredness of sex. Your body can’t handle anything less.”
You are so on it! I love it! As I was reading your comment I was thinking “yes, yes, YES, YES!” You get it. Thank you!
I am curious if you have any recommendations of resources for the practice of tantric yoga? I am drawn to tantra, and have done quite a bit of study on the energetics side of the practice. Am curious about the yogic side.
nuno gusmão said:
Hi,
It is beautiful the way you have embraced your problem and the way you decided not to fight but to incorporate it as part of your learning process.
I only have herpes around my mouth and they have been with me for a long time, more then 20 years. Lately, some 2 years ago, I started to explore sacred sexuality and herpes – that had been gone for a long time – reappeared … I noticed that whenever I do a spiritual retreat or I have a more deep encounter with people, when I lower my energetic defenses, when I let go, the result is herpes coming back. I felt it could be a manifestation in the physical body of what had been going on at the energetic level of my being. A friend of mine told me that she thinks that this can be a way for me to slow down after some significant experience I had…
Well I just wanted to share my experience with herpes and tell you that reading yours helped me a lot.
Sending you love
Nuno
Serafina said:
Thank you so much for reading and sharing a bit of your story. Sending you much love ❤
lucidempyrean said:
thank you so much for sharing ❤ have you had any testing done to see if the virus has left your body? its so nice to connect with others who believe we can heal ourselves, no matter what mainstream tells us. it truly is a blessing in disguise.
Serafina said:
There is no testing to see if its left your body, according to my doctor. The tests are done when you are symptomatic. Do you know of any tests? I have been without symptoms for almost a year now. I really truly believe this is one hundred percent curable.
Hope said:
Thank you so much for sharing your story! I agree with you 100% and I have had a very similar experience with herpes. I am just now getting into the idea of visualization…I have been opening my heart to meeting someone who could possibly help me in this area, and I immediately stumbled upon your article! I have been working on healing what I feel is the root of my sexual issues, which is many years of sexual abuse during my childhood. I feel like my diet and understanding of my body is in a much better place but I feel like my next step is needs to be going deeper spiritually, and letting go of my fear and anger towards this virus (it has gotten MUCH better, but I know I still have work to do!) I would love to start incorporating deeper meditation and visualization techniques to what I do now (basic meditation/yoga). Could you possibly give me some advice on how to get started with this?? Thank you so much!!
Serafina said:
Hi Hope,
There are many different avenues and ways you could go. Some common and effective Kundalini Yoga meditations that would be helpful for you are Sat Kriya and Kirtan Kriya. Both deal with the sexual energies of the body and reseting them. I’ve found both of them to be a blessing in my own journey of working through sexual traumas. You may also find doing Nahbi Kriya helpful in rebuilding self-esteem, self-worth, and confidence if that is part of your journey.
I recently found this article which includes some kriyas. I bookmarked it for a later date and I think you would find some awesome information here: http://www.3ho.org/kundalini-yoga/meditation/featured-meditations/reclaiming-your-innocence-healing-sexual-abuse
Let me know if you try the kriyas and how it goes! It’s best to pick the one that is most resonant for you, and do it for 40 days or more to create a strong new way of being. If you do a search for Kirtan Kriya on this website you will find my journey with it.
Much love!
Tevna said:
In answer to the question to see about Herpes leaving the body – YES, there is one. It is the regular blood tests for HSV – DNA PCR, to look for the presence of the virus in the body by looking for its genetic “signature” – its DNA. My own experience with Herpes has been somewhat different, so I wanted to share it for those who might have it more like me. I found out I was infected with it about 10 years ago, when I was in medical school, just because a lover insisted I get a blood test for “everything” (as you probably know, HSV is not on standard STD tests). I was shocked to be positive for HSV 1 and 2 because I had never had a breakout that I knew about – anywhere – although my mother has always gotten bad cold sores. The ratios of the different immune components indicated that I must have had it for a while. I was relatively recently divorced and my husband of 10 years got tested and did not have it. I read up on it and discovered that much of the population carries it but 80% of carriers are immune – never get outbreaks so, like me, they don’t even know that they have it. Just recently, I had an outbreak with obvious blisters that I could see – my first ever. It was not genital or oral. It was anal – very close to anus. I have never had anal sex and don’t really associate my anus with sex (though I know that many people do). I also don’t have any issues around sexuality that I am conscious about. I’ve had good and bad experiences there, like most people, but I could not relate to Louise Hay’s suggestions that it is associated with guilt about sex and shame related to sex, etc., because I have always felt very positive and free about sexuality. Then, suddenly, I realized that as far back as my teenage years, I had strange episodes of “hemorrhoids” that made no sense in a thin, athletic teenager with chronic diarrhea. I had also developed early issues with recurrent bladder “infections” that tested negative for bacteria and came with a lot of lymphatic swelling. Meditating on all this, I think that my Herpes is in the bladder and anal areas and is actually related to Root chakra issues, not 2nd (Sexual) chakra ones. And it is related to anger (being “pissed off”) and having trouble letting go of things that no longer serve me (anus – release – issues). So, I think it is important to remember that Herpes is not specifically a 2nd chakra or sexual-origin disease for all of us and might actually be related to other issues ! 🙂
Serafina said:
Thank you for sharing your experience! It is very different from mine. 🙂