As it often happens, I’ve noticed, when you do a lot of Kundalini Yoga meditations it begins with me not noticing anything really changing. I do one for a week and I add another one. And then I add another one.
Suddenly the world is moving fast. I’m in a stream of energy holding by breath as I hang on to the crest of the wave. Around me everything is changing. Its changing fast, its moving almost effortlessly, and its often overwhelming.
When people ask me how I am right now I don’t know how to answer them. There are so many amazing things happening in my life right now. I can only grin at you. More than one friend has heard about my life as of late and asked me, “What ARE those meditations you are doing?”
And to be honest, I blame all the changes on the meditations I’m doing.
But when you ask me how I am, I don’t know how to answer you. I am freaked out. I am changing. My life is changing. How I perceive myself and the world around me is changing. The way people respond to me is changing. What I do on a day to day basis is even changing.
And I am walking into the unknown right now.
And I can’t tell you where I will be in a month from now.
Because right now, every few days, there is a major shift occurring in my life.
It is amazing to witness. I realize part of what I’m learning is to be okay with the unknown. To be honest, I am surprised I have such trouble with it. I love adventure. One of my greatest fears though is that I will end up homeless again.
Yet I feel the need to surrender to this process and do my best to trust the new path opening up before me will take care of my Earthly needs so much more than anything else.
P.S. I’m still doing the Grace of God, Ardas Bhee and Ancestral Karma Clearing meditations. They actually make a really beautiful combination.